need i say more?
Saturday, April 4, 2009
life has been rough without you, even though its been just two days knowing you're with him. so just now, madrasah. people keep asking who has done such a thing to me. its quite saddening. people keep saying, 'asal aqil diam jer ah?'. im so sorry guys, she should just have said a straight 'NO!' but she insisted on playing with my feelings and finally broke my heart. i know i dont have the qualities of a 'Mr. Right' but i do know that being rejected is not as saddening as being fooled around with. your friends, they treat me like dogs. they think that by being older, they have the power to control my emotions and also actions. shout at me, force me, wat you think? im your dog? life has never been happy for me, i get scolded for wat i do wrong. life is never fair, everytime im happy, i will lose something precious. first, my friends. second, you. wats next, my family? i guess my blog url is suitable for me, right? being your doll. you share your sad things with me. but when you're happy now, you forget me, as though like a rag-and-bone man. im just dwelling on the past. i dont wish to move on in life, knowing that i will be rejected everytime i pop the question. im a guy, with a natural behaviour of taking revenge, you forced me to do this, to my loved one. you played nice mind games with me, doubting my love. well, you wan to play right? i'll join in but trust me, your relationship, will never ever be a happy one. lets see wat i did, i LIED for you, i COMFORTED you, i ACCOMPANIED you, i even shared your sadness. love, the most hell of a thing i have ever tried, its worst than drugs, or even a cigarette. i tried it, so i know. right now, i keep asking myself, how could you be so heartless? i spent money buying a present, for you. but i didnt tell, i wanted it to be a surprise. remember those roxy flats? i bought them, but now, they're gonna be burnt in the incinerator plant. i threw them away, wasting my last $50 i had in my savings. it has been tough saving them, but thougher WASTING them for a heartless person. looks like im gonna dwell on this for a long time..
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