hey all. i decided to post after hearing azzri's words just now. let me tell you all what had happened, starting from school. so school, reached school as per normal. then went to class to meet haikal and azzri. then quickly rushed down to assemble. then after flag raising, it was reading, the normal stuffs. as first period was mother tongue, headed to the mt room. near the spiral, saw her. she was with her friends walking up the staircase. so i waved at her. she waved back. i dont know why but i wwas feeling moody today. as though something bad or unwanted will happen. i just had that feeling. then suring mt, acted happy although wasnt. did a compo. second period of mt, saw her having PE lessons. she played badminton. then after mt, it was maths. i dont wanna talk about maths. then was recess. recess, ate the chicken chop. felt like cry-ing but azzri cheered me up. thanks bro! then had two periods of science. the teacher nvr come. so free two periods. one was wisely spent crying, well, was actually half-crying. but theres tears though. the next period was spent talking to the three crazy girls, haikal and azzri. after that was history. teacher went through chapter6. then literature. it was absolutely boring. wasted money to go to school for a so boring lesson. then was english. played a game. me and travis gt 3rd place. thanks travis! then was assembly, well, supposed to but it wass upper sec assembly. so lower sec had pastorial care. then dont know wat happened. wasnt paying much attention. was thinking wat will happen. then went home. but played a little soccer first, with fashan, azzri n haikal. saw her going in the girls toilet. wanted to said hi or sumthing but she was with her friends. malu ah. then went canteen. saw her again. then decided to go home. i followed how i sent her back yesterday, hoping to find her. then didnt see her, so sat at the senior citizen place. then saw her. tegur-ed her. i reminded her about tomorrow. she seemed to forget. her friend she was walking with seemed angry while i was talking to her. im sorry about that. then after that, straight away went home. it was raining heavily so was stucked at the void deck in front of admiralty station. when i stepped into my room, heard a vibrating sound. checked my handphone that was in the cupboard. three messages sent from her. she said dont reply as she was going out. so i decided to leave her an offline chat message. when walking to khatib central, azzri told me this, 'aku nak bilang kau sesuatu, aku rase kau tak selamat kalau kau sukakan dier. kau tahu lah budak sec4 kan? dorang step jer suke tapi kadang kadang, dorang maen maen denagn perasaan kau.' sorry for the the non-malays who can view my blog. if translated, it says, 'i want to tell you something, i dont think its safe if you still like her. you know lah, sec4 girls. they act they like you, but actually, they are just playing with your feelings.' these are the words that made me want to blog. i want you to tell me the truth. it made me more moody. i just feel like crying now. i dont know why. so i hope you can online at 9 or sumthing k? bye..