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Monday, January 26, 2009
sori for nt posting for the past few days...
i was busy, sick n at the same time heartbroken...
back from sembawang park...
overnite-d there
slept at 3am yesterday
from 11pm onwards,
me, kak nana n abg syaz got an open talk
i talked about my days at opss
but the highlight was my love life
i actually don wanna put it here,
but i will
make this post a lesson to u out there
yes, u
my ex,
ain
u left me
i dont mind
i was at fault
i was dumb
i was greedy
i was stupid
but most importantly, i suck
i cant deny it
now u're wif him
i happy for u
but still nt satisfied even though i hav more time
i wasted 3 years searching for u
but we lasted for not even a month
it all started in the month of januari 2008
i was stupid to hav joined mendaki
seriously
so moving back to the open talk
i told them my experiences wif ain
i wont hide her name
i hav regretted saying the 5 words
im really sori
u don wan to take me back
but i still want u
i wont tell it to u
unless u read this blog of mine
u're wif him
everytime i wanna msg u t noe how u're doing,
i alwaes thought,
if i msg her, im disturbing wif her relationship
wat kind of man would do that?
everytime when im online n see that u're online,
i will appear offline,
to not interfere wif ur relationship wif him
yes,
him
the guy nt named aqil n nvr will again
im sori
i hav been crying for the past 5 minutes or so
lets move on wif our lives
theres a saying :
live to love and love to live
but will i ever be in that state again?
i think not
i hav been in love a lot of times
but nvr in a relationship wif any of them,
except u, ain
since i got to buy my lunch,
i will end this post here
n will continue tomorrow
nt knowing if i will stand on earth or be part of earth
i noe im welcoming death
but we will all die one day
so i will leave after this words...
ain,
plz come back to me
im nt the aqil i used to be
i hav been crying in my sleep
even if u hate me,
i will alwaes love u
no matter wat happens,
i will still love u
so its ur decision to take me back or nt
i won force u too
coz i wont prosper without u
goodbye...
5:08 PM
